The Diary Of A RivitHead: Confusion..

My Bestfried hates me now.
we where talking then all of a sudden she was saying how her life is going in a possitive diriection and shes finaly geting it to gether and that my life is shit.

Then she deleted me from her facebook. To make it worse.. her husband did too.

Should I feel sad?

I've know her for what.. 5 years.

I haven't even really thought about the situation until now. I'm not mad at her, I'm not sad or depressed about the situation. Have I actually managed to numb myself enough to the point of not caring that I lost my bestfriend because of some stupid little argument?

We where the type of friends who hung out so often that it seemed like we where always around eachother. We'd be by ourselfs and remember the other person being there. We had our emotional times and our.. unemotional times, but always cared for one anothers opinion or welbeing. We'd spend days on end insaulting eachother and never caring what anyone thought about us. We even made music together, and started a cheesy little gang because thats what best friends do.

Now I've lost one of the only people I ever express myself to and its like I dont even care. It doesnt seem right, it doesnt seem like I should feel this way but I do.

I just laugh. alone. lol.