The Diary Of A RivitHead: Phantoms

I'm seeing phantoms again. I know not to give in and play with them, cause if I play with them then something bad would happen to me. Every time something bad happens it because of them. Sometimes they come as feelings, like something inside me, teasing me, making me feel like I should become irrational or do something I know I shouldnt do. Other times they come as disappearing and reappearing apparitions. When they appear they make want to follow them, they bring me to someplace to do something. They disappear when I ignore them. But the worst are the ones who come as both. They lead me somewhere making me think thing make me do things and tell me that I have to do it, only less demanding, more like a game. And they way they present their ideas seem fun, like the kind of fun you just cant miss out on.

I'm starting to wonder if they might be the cause of my blackouts only when I wake up from a blackout I feel like nothing happened. Nothing seems out of place and my body seems to be fine. But I've been told I act strangely. Like almost nonresponsive, or when I do respond its either something very rude or off topic. Sometimes I even seem to think I am doing something else during a blackout, like my mind makes up a scenario to fill in the missing gaps of time. When I come to and realize my body is the same as before, nothing is harmed or out of place, it makes me think it has nothing to do with the phantoms. The phantoms always end up hurting me.